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nothing to go back to

for so long this is all i had to turn to. give me hope, and wash away my fears. goodnight songs could say it best, you were always there to be with me. to guide me back home. it seems like a different world. i would give everything just to go back. all those nights are still with me right to this day. confined to four walls but i'm still crying out. confined to four walls but we're still crying out. this is all we ever had. now i stand here in the dark reaching for some truth. i gave you all i was. now i've got nothing left. if we struggle for our dreams to be realized. we must struggle even more for them to be forgotten. i look into the night sky. i see it's all the same. i try to find your eyes. it is still the one thing that drives me insane. this was the song i wanted to sing all those nights. now it's something i can't define.

the death of fear

what the fuck? we've lost our minds. running as fast as our legs can go. laughed at sanity and regained stability. with our eyes blurred with tears, tears of pain. lost in paranoia, we won't walk the line. don't know what we will find. needing answers, we're out of time. afraid of the unknown, and left all alone. (but still) i will carry you with all my might. our hearts weigh heavy, still strong tonight. "once again i have this feeling of breathing on my own." we carved our fate right in the stone. desperation transforms into strength. we rise to smash and reclaim our life. re-newed hope. fixing things that are broken. grab onto me and take a breath, we got miles to go. and find those shoes kid, we're not going to rest. no sleep, wide eyed. we're going out in the world. our feelings are far from a trend and these feelings are never going to end. overcome. all our fears. ignite the flame that burns in our hearts.

face tomorrow

you call to say you care. but your only time spent is on yourself. self pitty and selff loathing, it's a drug. we overdose. on the chair we have already fixed the rope. blind to any future we are stuck in the past. no more summer. no more christmas. it's like choking on broken glass. we are speaking up and lending our ears. this is the year that has become filled with tears. when things fall apart. with nothing left. darkness has fallen in my mind. "my old friend come to bother me again" (like) when everyone is leaving that burning house, i am running in. take a breath and hold onto me. is anyone left? am i alone? i will bare the weight of the world. carry it right on my back so you can stand up. i don't want you to ever walk alone. we build our demise construct it to prefection, never knowing what could have been. the day we are all as one, the day we all sit in the sun. and the world would have bowed right down. but that night you chose to say goodbye, well that night we all died. walls are coming down. point the cannon and light the fuse. i'm on my toes. i'm ready to go. i've got nothing left to fucking lose .

the greater good

this may be the worst day of my life but i'm still greatful to be alive. look away from yourself for a moment. innocent lives taken away. families feel the torment. kids killing kids, lives never lived. all we have, is all we need. all we have is fucking images on t.v. and the friends that we've lost. traded all for a hidden agenda. i love my friends to fucking death. it's up to you to hold or throw away. strive for the greater good. the greater good is what's at stake, this is here to leave or to take. a "sob story" never solved one fucking thing. if you picture a cold world. that’s all you’ll see.

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what we once were

where did it go? the times i loved so much. days of sun, days of gold, crumbled from my touch. and in our youth we had it all. looking back i can trace the fall. nothing left but scraps on the floor, with hopes to bring them back once more. and they're never coming back, i look to those days, they have what these lack. i know you can't live in the past, but have you ever felt like you grew up to fast? i feel alone, and out of place. so far from home, so far from grace. dark and cold, it fills this time, waiting for the day the sun will shine. as hope falls through my hands I wait for the day.

runaway

if you're gonna go, fucking go. because I'm sick of hearing all your empty words, promises, "i'll always be there for you." now I see it was just something to keep you afloat. deadspace. does this mean anything to you? are you even in touch with all the beauty in this world? no. this is hear, now, opportunity to see the light, to realize this life. this is here, now.

october

as the sun breaks through the window, my eyes see for the first time, sunrise for the first time. but i will not sheild my eyes can't close to the beauty, the beauty of you. to celebrate a life, i celebrate you, the catalyst of wonderful and everything. you heal my wounds, you cure my wrongs "all the cuts and cracks". my heart longs for your shine, your light, breathe into me and i'll breathe into you. i know that i'll never be afraid to die as long as I have this to share with you. isn't it suppose to be so cold in october?

no more hurt

your selfishness brings fear and intimidation. your mysoginist behavior causes a lifetime of pain. (you disgust me) where's your sense of compassion, where's your sense of humanity? you thought you've silenced the ones you have abused. this justice will be served. this justice will prevail. no more suffering, no more hurt, not this time.

tired

i know right from worng, seems like there's always something wrong. morals and goals, deep inside, the search for truth and purpose. down in the gutter with nowhere to look but back. break the walls, get out of the shadows, tired of the way things were. now i see myself, i see myself for who i truly am. and while we may be worlds apart, at least i know it's for the best. reaching for the past and coming up empty handed. i look at you it's not the same, it's not like the times when we were bold. people move on, times can change, but i know i'll never turn away. but i can see you've turned your fucking back. they always told me the only failure was in no longer trying (it's all so clear to me now). it won't hold me down.